Woman who 'died' and came back says there's no word for what she saw

 There’s a very select group of people who have been considered clinically dead before being brought back to life.

One of those is Canadian nurse Julia Evans, who says she experienced a near death experience (NDE) just as she was due to start a shift.

Studies reveal that for many people when they have a NDE, they have out of body experiences, or see visions and hallucinations. However, for Julia, something else happened too.

NDEs are defined as someone having been considered clinically dead before coming back to life, or the experiences of someone thought to be near death.

Speaking to podcaster Jeff Mara, Julia recounted the day which changed her life.

In 2018, her morning started as usual, where she said goodbye to her children and went to the gym to run on the treadmill before going to work as a nurse.

But as she started her shift, she felt scratching in her throat and realised that there were lilies at the nurses’ station – and she is allergic.

Usually she would leave the area when she sees lilies, however, this time she said: ‘For whatever reason, I felt a push, or pull, to go towards the lilies.’

She was struggling to breathe and motioned to her co-workers to get rid of the lilies as people rushed to get medication and call her family. But at that point she was starting to become hypoxic – when the airway closes

She says when physicians came to administer some medication, they gave her the wrong drug. She said: ‘In that instant, everything in my world vanished, except from me and the physician, and we both locked eyes with each other, we both realised it was the wrong drug.’

Julia was given the wrong epinephrine, which should be put into the muscle instead of the vein, where it was administered.

‘Once he gave me that, I felt it was completely my last breath,’ she says: ‘There was this flash. And there was this play on being in this existence and being somewhere else. And I remember opening my mouth, and being a nurse I knew they were going to intubate me.’

Her team thought she was having a heart attack but Julia says: ‘My heart, I know to this day, needed to explode – and that’s what it did.’

Then she says she started feeling symptoms of how her loved ones died, including her step mother who died of a heart attack and her biological mother who died of a brain aneurysm.

‘Then that’s when they lost me. I went into something called pulseless VTAC, so I had no pulse. I hit such a frequency in my heart…when I say my heart exploded, I don’t mean like a grenade but there was so much medication that it just stopped.

‘I went from blue to pale to grey, the colour of death and I was flaccid on the bed’ 

Julia says she went somewhere else: ‘It was blacker than black and it wasn’t hell. I describe it as blank consciousness. It’s a void, nothing exists but you know you’re somewhere else.’

She said she felt like crying but had no eyes so felt it in her heart instead. Then she claims she heard her mother who died in 1983 say: ‘It’s okay, honey. Mommy’s here, don’t cry.’

Julia continued: ‘I heard her like actually hearing her as if she was standing right beside me, I heard “clear” and was back into this world, but I wasn’t fully back into this world.’

Then she had an out of body experience, where she was hovering around 2ft from herself, as people around her were screaming for her to come back. Then she heard: ‘We lost her again’

Then, Julia says, she was immersed in a bright light: ‘It had so much colour and so much of everything. But there is no human word to describe it fully, the only way I know how to describe it was there was so much love within that moment that I was gifted the greatest gift and that’s that self-love.’

She said the light was so peaceful and felt like home ‘and I could sense every single person that had passed and who passed away before me standing there… I could see their essence…and I was with everyone, like my mum and my best friends, and my dog and my aunts and all the people who have passed.’

Then she says she was jolted back into her body again, where she saw a tunnel with a figure which was something like Jesus with long hair – who she says could have been the nurse who was working on her, aware that she was struggling to make sense of it all.

She said she asked herself: ‘Is that Jesus? Do I follow him? Is he going to save me? Do I instinctively go that way to salvation? Another part of me was like is that Buddha? Who is this, do I get to decide? Have I reached Nirvana?’

She says that when she looked down, she noticed she wasn’t wearing any clothes, ‘like a brand new baby, and that’s when I took a breath.’

She then felt like she was back, but all she could see was ‘a beautiful purity being’. She says felt her mother’s touch through the nurse, who had the same name, and realised she was back in the ICU.

In the moments after she awoke, Julia says she could see the ‘lineage’ of the nurses and doctors around her and everything that ‘connected to them’. She called them ‘rays’ of light.

She said: ‘I felt like I had this light, not just within me but surrounding me, and these beams of light was this awareness of all these other levels and all these other worlds, all these other things outside this conscious world we live.

‘And I saw these rays…I could see the physical person in this realm, but I could also see their lineage, I could see what is connected to them’